Shoot Memories #014 December 10 - 2007

My first shoot with a model who has since retired, but I have shot with many, many times over the years.  She's become a lifelong friend and in fact, just today we went on a wine tasting adventure after a nice Thanksgiving.  I have a lot to be thankful for.  At this first shoot she hadn't gone anonymous yet, but since she is not trying to be anonymous in her modeling I'll only post shots of an anonymous nature.  For this shoot we hiked way the hell up hill 88 in the Marin headlands.  It was cold and a long hike.  I'm not sure if this was a preview for all (or most) of our following shoots, but cold has certainly been a part of most of our shoots.  I'm honored to have her as a friend.  And to think this December it will have been 10 years we've been shooting together!  

November Salon

As always, I meet with a group of talented photographers once per month.  As always, I am never disappointed.  These are what I showed. 

Got off track in my shoot memories...

I guess that's because I've been busy doing new shoots and stuff.  So, today, I'm doing a bit of a massive update.  First though, I'll post the images from my latest Salon Group.

shoot memories # 013 Septempber 20 - 2007

My second shoot with Barrett was way better (I think because I was getting better...it definitely wasn't her fault!!!) and I began to realize that shooting with a model more than once was really the best way to begin getting very good images.  It seems the first shoot ends up being a way to sort of get a sense of each other.  This shoot took place in an amazing studio that I wish I still had access to.  Sadly the guy went out of business.

Shoot Memories #012 July 22 - 2007

Shooting outside was still the thing I wanted to do most and in Kat, I found the perfect partner in crime.  I can't overstate what a wonderful model Kat was to work with.  Grace, spirit, beauty, poses to die for.  This was my second shoot with her and it was fabulous.  We shot out at China Camp State Park.  Enjoy the photos.  

I need to revisit my editing on this shoot as there are some fantastic photos in there that could do with some upgrades from my more educated skills!

Shoot Memories #011 July 16 - 2007

Nothing too remarkable about this shoot.  Went back to the same studio I had been renting south of Market in SF.  Barrett was an aspiring model.  We worked well together I thought.  I would have kept shooting with her, but she moved to LA.  Many familiar themes in this shoot.

Shoot Memories #010 June 6 - 2007

The third and final shoot I did while visiting Oahu was again on Oahu on the East side of the island.  Cybil and I shot at her boyfriends house.  He had a pool which made things new and different.  And..I had to return to the China Walls.  The crystal ball was used for this shoot as well.

Shoot Memories #009 June 04 - 2007

It was on this trip where I bought the crystal ball that I still use today.  I'm not sure where I got the idea, but I'm pretty sure I had never seen it used with nudes before, so, it's sort of become one of my signature styles.  I don't bring it to every shoot but I often do.  And sometimes when I do, I forget to use it.  It has to be the right situation and the right model.

I had used it on the previous shoot in Hawaii with Stephanie, but only in a few shoots.  At this shoot, with Iris, I really started to use it in earnest.  We started out in a studio I rented on Oahu and got some pretty decent shots.  Every time, even to this day, I fool around in a studio, things never quite go as I expected, but still tend to turn out cool.  Anyway, after that, she told me about a place called China Walls on Oahu.  It's on the other side of the bay on the far side of diamond head from Waikiki. What a location!  And, we had it to ourselves because it was sort of a rainy afternoon which made for amazing light.  A couple of surfers were hanging about not doing much surfing :)  It was a wonderful afternoon working with a great model in unbelievable scenery.  A success.  If I wasn't already hooked on nude shooting by this point, I was after.  

Shoot Memories #008 June 3 - 2007

So, ya, I was in an interesting point in my life in 2007.  I had been driving to my place of work 50 miles each way for about 4 years.  In addition, I was on call pretty much 24/7 if things went wrong with the big physics machine we were running.  It was mostly the commute, but it was also the hours, so I was looking around for a new job.  I landed an offer from Lawrence Berkeley National Lab and so told my boss I was gonna take it (shorter commute, less hours etc).  Well, that got their attention.  They gave me a retention bonus, a raise and offered to send me to a conference (any conference).  So, I chose the big microwave conference that was being held in Oahu...

I made contact with 3 models while over there.  One of them was Stephanie.  She wanted to do a GQ style shoot on Kauai, and so we did.  This was by far one of the most fun shoots I've every had.  Saul (the dude), was a total handsome stud and Stephanie was totally beautiful as was the secret beach location on the North end of Kauai.  I flew over, Stephanie picked me up and drove me to the "secret" beach and then Saul joined us later.  It was really a wonderful afternoon with a couple of beautifully wonderful people.

In addition, I had come to the conclusion, for better or worse that my wife was never going to be OK with me shooting, so, I took it underground.  This was a serious breach in marital trust and I just didn't care.  What a POS I was.  I convinced myself that I wasn't doing anything wrong.  I still feel that way about shooting, I wasn't doing anything wrong.  However, what I did do wrong was lie (or keep it secret) from my wife.  I regret this deeply, but also feel like it gave us a few more years of marriage in reasonable happiness.  I would have been a mopey dope had I not had this outlet that I had just discovered (my life was feeling pretty bleh at this point)...but..that was just me being selfish, no doubt about it. 

Anyway...here's the photos.

Shoot Memories # 007 September 8 - 2006

Finally, I got an opportunity to do something I had always wanted to do.  Environmental outdoor nudes and wow, was I blessed to be able to work with none other than Kat Love for my first outdoor shoot.  I had had quite the hiatus since my workshop and as I remember, I hadn't actually be given permission to go ahead to start shooting again, but being the crappy partner I was, I at least told her what I was doing and went ahead and did the shoot without permission.  This shoot landed me in personal therapy (obviously there was something wrong with me) as well as another round of couples therapy, but it was completely worth it.  Kat was amazing to work with.  Such poise and grace.  I think I knew (unconsciously)  at the end of this shoot that I would likely never stop shooting, and that likely, my marriage was in jeopardy (and not just because of my photography).  I'm not proud of who I was then, and I'm glad that I'm able to just be me now, though there was a pretty steep price to be paid on down the road in terms of hurting my family and friends.

A word here on therapy.  You only get out of therapy what you put into it. You have to believe that there is something you need out of therapy before you go into it.  AND, you have to find a decent therapist.  Of the 5 therapists I've had direct interaction with only one was worth the money he was paid.  The rest were utter garbage and got basically paid to sit there and listen to me.  Our couples therapist this time was really, really good.  My personal therapist?  What a joke.  But then again, I was only there to appease my wife.  Although, on the last day, he did admit to me that he didn't think there was anything "wrong" with me.  So, if you're ever thinking about therapy, please, find a good one, and really be wanting to do it, otherwise it's money down the drain.

Shoot Memories #006 February 26 - 2006

As part of the deal with my wife, I could only take a legitimate workshop.  So, naturally, I scoured the internet and found a workshop being held in the South Bay through the extension of UC Santa Cruz.  It was a workshop on hot lights and was very well run.  There were supposed to be three models, but one didn't show and so, Christie, one of the photographers agreed to model for us.  It was a great workshop and I feel like my style really started to show in these photos.   I was hooked again after this workshop, but, there was trouble ahead...

Shoot Memories #005 December 4 -2005

As I mentioned in my last blog, my excitement about shooting nudes for the first time in my life overshadowed my better judgement in not telling my ex wife (wife at the time) of what I was up to.  This was a serious break in our relationship and was entirely my fault for not being trusting enough that either she would be OK with it, or she would shut me down.  I can't blame her for shutting me down and pushing us into therapy.  I'm a flawed human like all of us.  I won't go into all the details of how the therapy went, but obviously there were other issues in our marriage that had not been resolved so we spent time working through many of those.  But at the end, it was "resolved" that if I could find a "legitimate" workshop and/or perhaps work with a male model (to I guess show I wasn't just a perv and only interested in females) then I could perhaps, maybe, return to shooting other models and such.  So, I found Alvin (I think via Craigslist).  He was my first nude male model and was great to work with.  It was a new experience for me both because I wasn't really used to being around nude dudes, but also, I hadn't spent my life looking at and enjoying male nudes so the vision of what I was tying to capture was a bit obscured by my own bias towards the female form. It was a successful shoot I thought and fulfilled my requirement for shooting a male nude.

Saturday Breakfast...

Lundy's has rapidly become my favorite spot for breakfast on Saturday.  Mostly because of the biscuits, eggs and gravy.  It's got an old school counter and I love it.   

Shoot Memories # 004 January 24 - 2005

Persis was my second photo studio shoot and by far the best I had to that date.  The studio was hers that she shared with another photographer.  She was helpful, full of ideas and really fun to work with.  She was the model who introduced me to oil and water and who showed me the details of how to make it happen (grape seed oil is the oil I still use for oil and water shoots).  I also tried experimenting with some light painting with a laser pointer as well as some timed stuff with me wandering about her with a light.  

Sadly, for me, but happily for her, she retired from modeling soon after this shoot and moved to Oregon or Washington to start a farm. I kept track of her for a while but have since lost contact.  She was very influential on getting me really into the nude as an art form.

Shortly after this shoot, I came clean with my ex-wife about what I had been doing.  I had clearly gone off the rails in terms of not being honest with her, mostly because I was afraid of how she would react and stop me from doing this thing I had really wanted to do my entire life.  And, of course, that is exactly what happened.  We spent the next 6-8 months in therapy...interestingly enough our therapist happened to be an ex-model and was somewhat sympathetic to my plight.  And, this was also when I discovered my real dislike of talk therapy for solving anything, but that's a different story for another time.  

For now, enjoy the photos....

Salon - August 2017

As I've mentioned elsewhere, I meet with an extremely talented group of folks for a salon where we share our work from the previous period.  I'm honored to be a member of this group and they really do give me positive and honest feedback on my work.  I wish I could share some of their work, but alas, I don't have access to it...so, instead, I'll share my 20 images :)

Shoot Memories # 003 January 11 - 2005

More Sarah today.  I think I only got to shoot with her twice as I caught her right at the end of her career.  I'm pretty sure she's a mom now still living somewhere in the Bay Area.  At this point, her kids might even be in middle school.  For this shoot, I decided to try renting a place for an afternoon.  This was a small B&B out in Stinson Beach.  The place was small, the light was OK, and I still really wasn't sure what I was doing and I think it shows in the images.  Both in the edits (where I was doing things like adding glamour glow etc), but also just in how I was framing things and such.  Sarah was again great to work with however and it was an enjoyable afternoon.  I wish I had had more shoots with her.  This shoot took place in January 2005.  

At this point, I hadn't told my ex-wife what I had been up to.  Mostly because I was worried about her reaction, which later turned out to be exactly what I expected.  However, I did want to tell her and had plans to...but that didn't come till after one more shoot, which will hopefully be tomorrow's blog.  

Shoot Memories # 002 December 29 - 2004

My second nude shoot (first solo) was with a model named Sarah.  I can't remember if I met her on deviantArt or somewhere else.  But she definitely was on deviantArt.  Anyhow, she was one of a few bay area models that were around back in December 2004 and I really wanted to work with her as she seemed chill and I figured I'd be able to learn a lot shooting with her.  I rented a Studio in the SOMA district of San Francisco.  I had never used studio lights on my own and showed up early to get a quick demo of how they worked.  This is where I learned about shutter speed and strobes.  For those that don't know, there is a certain speed above which, the shutter on your camera closes before the flash is finished flashing, so really the right thing to do is to set your shutter speed just below that maximum sync speed and adjust either the light or your f-stop to set your exposure.  Anyway, we shot for I think two hours and got a reasonable amount of good work (for a first solo shoot with no instruction whatsoever).  

I was tempted to go back and edit some of these but I decided that I really wanted the photos to be seen just as I had edited them at the time.  The whole point of this exercise is for both me (and the reader if there are any) to see how my work progressed (if at all) over time.  So, without further ado, have a look.  

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Shoot Memories #001 December 4 - 2004

My first shoot that involved a nude model took place at a workshop I had found I think through craigslist.  This was back in December of 2004.  It’s hard to believe that it’s been that long!  Although, when I look at the photos, I really can see how far I’ve come since then. 

The workshop was fine.  The guy who set it up (John Brennan ) ran a decent workshop.  He had several sets, and a model who was willing to put up with a bunch of bumbling mostly first timers in a studio.  He set up all the lights and we all sort of took turns taking shots.  Only one person was in control of the strobes at a time, so the rest of us would use the modeling lights to get shots in between our turn.  It was sort of mayhem, but also worked out OK.  The model was oiled up which gave the whole thing a sort of perhaps more glamour feel than I might have liked, but at that time, I didn’t really know what I was doing so it was fine. 

The one standout thing I think he did (which is pretty standard in lots of photo workshops) is he had us put tape on our focus ring at about 2 feet to force us to move in and be comfortable with working closely with a model.  He also taught us the basic things like don’t touch the model for manipulate them in anyway without first asking permission.  Overall, it was a fine introduction to nude modeling.

Because it was my first shoot, I really only got 4 photos I’m willing to share with the world…enjoy.

A new series of Blogs - Shoot Memories

As often happens I get an idea in the shower first thing in the morning.  My guess is that it is because my subconscious mind has been thinking about something overnight and upon waking presents me with a “solution” to something I’ve either been working on in my day job or bothered about at home or whatever.  These aren’t epiphanies (although I’ll sometimes call them that much to the chagrin of my loved ones who just roll their eyes at me), but they are mini break throughs…

I recently had my Instagram account banned for breaking the community guidelines:

“Your account has been disabled for not following the Instagram Community Guidelines, and we won't be able to reactivate it. We disable accounts that post content that is sexually suggestive or contains nudity.

We understand that people have different ideas about what’s okay to share on Instagram, but to keep Instagram safe, we require everyone to follow our guidelines.

Read the Instagram Community Guidelines to learn more:

https://help.instagram.com/477434105621119/

Thanks,


The Instagram Team”

Which needless to say, pissed me off a bit.  Not that I’m some famous instagrammer, but I had blurred everything to standards etc, but I guess not enough for their prudish tastes.  So, bleh, fuck Instagram.  I have a website and if people want to follow me, I’ll give them something to follow me for instead of some bullshit censored post of my art with Instagram and facebook making money off my posts.  So, what I’ve decided to do is to go through every one of my (to date) 212+/- nude shoots and document a bit of what went on, why the shoot occurred and any other memories I had of the shoot.  Maybe budding nude photographers will get some insights, probably I’ll share too much about myself, but maybe someday, I’ll be famous and this shit will matter.  If not, lol, at least I’ll have killed some time doing something I enjoy.  So…stay tuned!

Just for kicks and because I know probably everyone is mostly here for the photos, I'll add  a photo. This just happens to be my all time favorite photo.  You'll have to wait through a few blogs to see more shots from this shoot.